Stepping Up to the Plate. Or Something Like That.

I've got that warm fuzzy feeling inside and it's not from my lunch.

I have something to say and I think it's really important. Whether you're a Christian or not, I'm pretty sure you'll agree with at least some of it.

I'll give you some background story first, though.

As you most likely know (people who read my blog have usually known me since I was about 14) I used to write A LOT about things God and I had been discussing. I haven't so much lately written about it and I was wondering why. I was talking to God the other night and he said, “Well you kind of need to rededicate yourself to me.”
I responded with “But...I am totally full on for you and passionate about your plan and everything!” But God does know better, being sovereign and indescribably amazing and all powerful. With this in mind, I said “Okay, I'll do it.” So I prayed and rededicated myself to Him, and felt awesome. THEN. Yes, then. He said to me, “Okay, now make it public.”


WHAT??!
What will my youth pastors think? What will the other people in the church think?

Yeah, anyway after that mini freak out, God said gently, “It's not about what other people think, it's about you and me. Besides you're in a safe place when you're with the Church, no one will judge you.”

I always love how he's so gentle with me like that. He gets how I'm wired because, hey, he was the one who wired up my brain.

This morning in the House we had a visiting speaker, an evangelist by the name of Andrew Kubala. He is very awesome and also hilarious. I wish I'd had my note taking implements (my phone which I left at home accidentally) with me cause he said a lot of awesome stuff...I think I'll be getting a hold of the CD because it's worth listening to over.

Anyway, lo and behold at the end of his message he had an alter call for people becoming Christians or rededicating their lives to Jesus. I was freaking out. I knew what God had said to me but I didn't want to look bad or weak or like I'd been evil or sinning like a maniac or something. I was praying inside, “GOD! PLEASE ASK HIM TO SAY SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL LESS FREAKOUTISH!” among other things. God answered my prayer quick-smart when Ps Andrew said something about even leaders, and one more person. I knew it was me that needed to put my hand up, because God had been telling me I had to for the ENTIRE WEEKEND. Hehe.

So I put my hand up. And when he called us out the front, I went. Along with some of my friends too, so I figured that maybe this is something God's been challenging a few people with this week(end).

I've been asking God for a new breakthrough and I got it by being obedient in one simple thing. I was feeling embarrassed, but God said to me then that I didn't need to, because, as I looked around me when heading back to my spot, all around me were other leaders and pastors, and people I KNOW love him totally.

Taking physical steps forward like that and being bold in public is important. It shows people where you are at in your heart and what you are focused on. (Baptism is another fantastic example of this.) Walking the walk (literally in my case) proves that you believe in and act on your own talk. I'd better not say anything more or I'll give it all away too soon!

I won't write out what else God's given to me just yet, not to publish here. I'll save it in a word document for another day....because this has been a lot already. If you're interested to hear about it, just message me or leave a comment or check out Colossians 3.