Refiner's Fire

I can say the following because I know virtually none of my wonderful followers in real life. Ah, the security that is in anonymity. Anywho.

I have been thinking.

Things you want to hurry up often take longer...and things you want to slow down, creep up really quietly and quickly. kind of like a monorail. So, it's like being stuck behind a big group of old people who are going nowhere in particular, while you are being late for the bus which has just turned the corner behind you.

So.
I am moving.
IN A WEEK.
I haven't packed, I haven't really solidly got anywhere to go.
I have turned down an internship.
I am looking for work up north.
I failed my driving test.

And amidst all of this uncertainty and rather selfish inward-looking-ness, my relationship with God has been flourishing. Maybe because He is the only really stable thing in my life now...maybe, something has finally sunk in. I like to think the latter. Two years ago I would have my head buried in the sand by now. Right now, even, it's a bit tempting to do the same. But I won't. This is one test I refuse to fail.

My patience, my trust and my steadfastness are all being tested right now with everything that's going on. but like I've been reading in Ephesians...

 I am in prison because I belong to the Lord. Therefore I urge you who have been chosen by God to live up to the life to which God called you. Always be humble, gentle, and patient, accepting each other in love. You are joined together with peace through the Spirit, so make every effort to continue together in this way. There is one body and one Spirit, and God called you to have one hope. --Ephesians 4:1-3, NCV

 It's tough. but when it's tough is when you really have to live up to who God has called you to be, it's when who you are really shows. My world is in flux, but I refuse to turn to the left or the right...I sometimes cry, but I am human and I have tear ducts. It's allowed. I don't let my situation consume me, I don't let it make me cynical or bitter or twisted. I become a better, more loving, more amazing person.

I once had this poster, hopefully I'll find it as I pack...anyway, it said:
GET A SPINE. IT'S TIME TO SHINE.
I plan on doing that.

I suppose absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I only ever seem to remember to blog when something significant happens in my life. Sorry about my absence again.

We are selling our house and moving to the Barossa Valley.

I am very scared/excited/happy.

There's a lot to tell, and I will tell it once this move is over.

That is, if I remember.

Lots of love
xo

Chapter 2: Simple Things.

So.
Since we spoke last a lot has happened in my life.
...or have I already told you about my new job? I can't actually remember.
I just checked. Yes, I have. So I won't repeat that to you, and bore you to tears waste precious exclamation marks.

Thus, I shall tell you other things!!!

I discovered Paw-paw Ointment!! It is fantastic! I use it for pretty much everything now, from cuts and blisters to lip balm. It's pretty inexpensive too. You use hardly any of it at one time. It's basically fermented fruit turned into a kind of paste-ointment thingy. Everyone should have a tube, it's incredibly useful. I wonder if Lucas' Pawpaw Remedies will pay me for spruking their product for them... >.> But yes, I seriously love the stuff <3

Also I had a small epiphany. Sometimes answers to important questions are so simple that we overlook them. Or, we notice the answer and then carry on, thinking that the soloution couldn't possibly be that simple. For instance, one of my friends recently started their own blog, and wanted to change their layout. They were frustrated when they couldn't figure out how to move things around, and head-desked when they found out that all you have to do is drag the boxes around. Just goes to show how we tend to over-complicate things for ourselves, the older we get.

Anyway, that's it really for now.

xoxo

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Life never ceases to amaze me. God surprises me constantly. It's awesome. HE's awesome.

I look at my circumstances now, and remember where I was 3 months ago...6 months ago...a year ago...so much for me has changed.

I have changed...the people around me have changed.

I've grown up  quite a bit. An interesting thing I've learned about growing up that I thought I might share is this. Growing up changes you and changes the way you think, and yet it doesn't. You still feel, in essence, the same as you did when you were four. Except...well, I like to argue that you're as intelligent as you were the day you began to exist, but your ability to understand and grasp what you previously couldn't is what actually develops.

Which brings me to another new thought, and a question: are we born with a limited capacity, or is our only limitation our thinking? Or...Do we have the capacity to be so immesurably awesome that we cannot fathom it ourselves...and therefore limit ourselves to what we are told by other people that we can do?

If you think "I'll never get a job" you probably won't...unless you change your thinking and do something about it.

If you think "My room will always look like a cyclone hit it" then it will likely stay that way.

Until you bchange your attitude and your thinking.

WHAT AM I SAYING???!! Now I should probably go clean my room. "I'm too busy" has been holding me back for too long :/

But yeah. Your behaviour and your understanding changes, but I don't think what makes you who you are changes. You are always uniquely you, no matter what you do.

Anyway, my messy room beckons me.

Love always

xoxo

Refreshing, much?

Hello.

I hope you like the new colour scheme, first of all. I felt it was time for a change, and this new look feels so...Leesy-ish. It's like when you slide on a pair of new fluffy slippers and fresh pyjama pants after getting out of a hot bath and drying off. Minus the snoozy bit though because it feels alive. And fresh.

But anyway.

Hello! :)

Sorry I haven't blogged in ages.

I have a new job!!! Well, have had for about four weeks now. But yes. It's fantastic!! Unfortunately though it means my writing has slowed almost to a halt. Having said that...YAY FOR FULL-TIME EMPLOYMENT!!

God is so good. Even when stress and not cool things hit me, that peace and assurance that it will all turn out okay in the end at the back of my mind helps me stay level headed and able to be who I'm meant to be.

The moon is beautiful and so are the stars. I love clear winter night skies.

I'm feeling very poetic and deep right now. I might go write a poem or philosophise.

In that case I will now sign off.

Sorry again. And for the disjointedness. But hey...blogs are meant to be just your thoughts on a page. This post is mine kind of rough and un-edited into flowing lyrical genius or paper-grade writing.

I miss writing essays.

Groove Hoob is awesome and green at the same time. Which is like awesome squared.

For real now, I am going.

Love always x