I suppose absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I only ever seem to remember to blog when something significant happens in my life. Sorry about my absence again.

We are selling our house and moving to the Barossa Valley.

I am very scared/excited/happy.

There's a lot to tell, and I will tell it once this move is over.

That is, if I remember.

Lots of love
xo

Chapter 2: Simple Things.

So.
Since we spoke last a lot has happened in my life.
...or have I already told you about my new job? I can't actually remember.
I just checked. Yes, I have. So I won't repeat that to you, and bore you to tears waste precious exclamation marks.

Thus, I shall tell you other things!!!

I discovered Paw-paw Ointment!! It is fantastic! I use it for pretty much everything now, from cuts and blisters to lip balm. It's pretty inexpensive too. You use hardly any of it at one time. It's basically fermented fruit turned into a kind of paste-ointment thingy. Everyone should have a tube, it's incredibly useful. I wonder if Lucas' Pawpaw Remedies will pay me for spruking their product for them... >.> But yes, I seriously love the stuff <3

Also I had a small epiphany. Sometimes answers to important questions are so simple that we overlook them. Or, we notice the answer and then carry on, thinking that the soloution couldn't possibly be that simple. For instance, one of my friends recently started their own blog, and wanted to change their layout. They were frustrated when they couldn't figure out how to move things around, and head-desked when they found out that all you have to do is drag the boxes around. Just goes to show how we tend to over-complicate things for ourselves, the older we get.

Anyway, that's it really for now.

xoxo

Awesome Title Goes Here.

Life never ceases to amaze me. God surprises me constantly. It's awesome. HE's awesome.

I look at my circumstances now, and remember where I was 3 months ago...6 months ago...a year ago...so much for me has changed.

I have changed...the people around me have changed.

I've grown up  quite a bit. An interesting thing I've learned about growing up that I thought I might share is this. Growing up changes you and changes the way you think, and yet it doesn't. You still feel, in essence, the same as you did when you were four. Except...well, I like to argue that you're as intelligent as you were the day you began to exist, but your ability to understand and grasp what you previously couldn't is what actually develops.

Which brings me to another new thought, and a question: are we born with a limited capacity, or is our only limitation our thinking? Or...Do we have the capacity to be so immesurably awesome that we cannot fathom it ourselves...and therefore limit ourselves to what we are told by other people that we can do?

If you think "I'll never get a job" you probably won't...unless you change your thinking and do something about it.

If you think "My room will always look like a cyclone hit it" then it will likely stay that way.

Until you bchange your attitude and your thinking.

WHAT AM I SAYING???!! Now I should probably go clean my room. "I'm too busy" has been holding me back for too long :/

But yeah. Your behaviour and your understanding changes, but I don't think what makes you who you are changes. You are always uniquely you, no matter what you do.

Anyway, my messy room beckons me.

Love always

xoxo

Refreshing, much?

Hello.

I hope you like the new colour scheme, first of all. I felt it was time for a change, and this new look feels so...Leesy-ish. It's like when you slide on a pair of new fluffy slippers and fresh pyjama pants after getting out of a hot bath and drying off. Minus the snoozy bit though because it feels alive. And fresh.

But anyway.

Hello! :)

Sorry I haven't blogged in ages.

I have a new job!!! Well, have had for about four weeks now. But yes. It's fantastic!! Unfortunately though it means my writing has slowed almost to a halt. Having said that...YAY FOR FULL-TIME EMPLOYMENT!!

God is so good. Even when stress and not cool things hit me, that peace and assurance that it will all turn out okay in the end at the back of my mind helps me stay level headed and able to be who I'm meant to be.

The moon is beautiful and so are the stars. I love clear winter night skies.

I'm feeling very poetic and deep right now. I might go write a poem or philosophise.

In that case I will now sign off.

Sorry again. And for the disjointedness. But hey...blogs are meant to be just your thoughts on a page. This post is mine kind of rough and un-edited into flowing lyrical genius or paper-grade writing.

I miss writing essays.

Groove Hoob is awesome and green at the same time. Which is like awesome squared.

For real now, I am going.

Love always x

Puny Human Brains Just Don't Get It, Ever.

I have a feeling that something is going to happen today. I think it's a good something. The more I think about the feeling itself, the more I think about what we talked about in the laystaff meeting this morning.

The main point that I got out of it (there was a LOT more than this though) was that by God's grace comes wisdom, knowledge and understanding (Proverbs 2:6). When we don't understand something ourselves, the best and most important thing to do is to not lean on something that we lack (Proverbs 3:5)! Often we'll even think that we have total understanding of our situation...but we don't. What we perceive to be true and what is actually the truth is often wrong.

We also like to think that what we want is obviously God's plan for our lives, and that bad things just aren't meant to happen to us.

Just, no, guys. Gold can't be refined and made pure without fire.

I'll use an example from my life that will hopefully explain why.

I had back and neck trouble on and off for over 15 years. Yes, since I was four. It hasn't restricted me much, but I'd never been able to do push-ups because my back wouldn't support me. And pain is annoying. My pastor prayed for me one Sunday and I was healed. But then all of a sudden, I was in more pain than before! I didn't understand why I was in pain. I was angry. I cried. It took me two days to be able to ask someone why, and when I did, I had a massive facepalm moment. Turns out that when your muscles have been compensating for so long, when everything is put back right, you hurt even more!!!

I apologised to God for yelling at him, and I think he may have had a small chuckle. I know I did, in a sheepish kind of way.

My understanding failed me, I should have been listening to his voice. But at least I have now got a fantastic illustration for this point! See, there was God at work in multiple levels. Man, God is awesome.

We don't have the road map for our future, but God does (Jeremiah 29:11...the verse that stalks me). He's like our navigator, and we can choose to listen to his wisdom or choose not to. If he tells you something, you can believe him. My mum always says that you should check things you get with the Bible to make sure that it lines up...that's a whole other blog post though. But yeah. God gives wisdom and when he gives it, it's usually something that can be found in his word.

God has a plan for us, to ultimately make us prosperous (Jeremiah 29:11). We need to grow first to be able to reach our full and awesome potential. A horse cannot win any sort of prestigious trophy without first being gentled or broken, and put through rigorous training.

Likewise, we don't necessarily understand why bad things are happening to us. The horse doesn't understand why that infernal man has strapped a saddle to its back and is pushing it to run its hardest...in a circle of all things. You may not feel like you're going anywhere, but the more you grow and rely on God, like the horse that trusts its trainer and is obedient, the more awesome you'll become.

Trust Him with all your heart and don't rely on your own understanding! God is so much bigger and knows infinitely more than us. Listen to him. ;)